Please bear with me...I need about a week or two to tweak this blog and get it more along the lines of what I am trying to accomplish with this blog, which is exchanging food obsession for a much deeper relationship with Christ.
Weekends are great! I love getting off on Friday afternoon, and even more so when there is the promise of beautiful weather! But weekends can also be my downfall. For some reason, my body likes to think of Saturday and Sunday as free-for-all days. It takes effort to eat responsibly.
May I be painfully honest with you? I am not at a place where obedience to God is more important to me than gluttony. It’s a hard truth that I admit. As I sit with a great meal before me, I choose to overeat…and I usually recognize that point where I am getting full. But still I eat.
Food is necessary for life, a stepping stone, you might say. It is also my stumbling block. On The Brown Recluse/Margaret’s Musings, I have preached being responsible with yourself. Usually, I am talking about getting drunk at places where there are lots of alcohol and lots of over-indulgence. But I should pay attention to my own directive and be responsible for my health and well-being by being careful about what I put into my body…God’s temple.
Create in me a clean heart (and a tender heart), O God, and renew a steadfast (unwavering, committed, loyal, dedicated, true, trusty and faithful) spirit within me.(Psalm 51:10)
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God.
Lesson learned: Memorize verses at a time, not chapters.
When you run into a stumbling block: Step over it, step around it, step on it to make it a stepping stone, but take that step! It’s the only way to continue the journey. Stay where you are today and you’ll still be where you’ve been when tomorrow arrives.
I can’t argue the fact that sometimes it feels good to stay where you are and do nothing. We must be careful to not grow stagnant while we are resting.
It is important that we know God; conversely, it is
important that God knows us. We were created for His enjoyment! He wants a true relationship with us, and He
gave us the right to make the choice when He gave us our free will.
In His sovereignty and omnipotence, He has the ability to
know everything, but I believe that because He wants to know us individually,
He defers His all-knowingness to our will without invading our headspace.
Out of His great love for us, He allows us to choose Him, and He will
not force His way into our lives. That’s
why He speaks to us in a still, small voice…one that we can only hear when we
I know God understands our thoughts afar off (Psalm 139). It is up to us to invite Him in to our innermost being. There are times that it is very important
that He intervene on our thoughts because left to our own devices, some of us
(me, for example) would be thinking some crazy stuff. I think He chooses to let us think on our own, however, and He always lets us make our own decisions.
If He didn’t give us a choice, and if He invaded our
headspace continually, He would find no enjoyment in us. How could He not be bored if He allowed
Himself to know what our every next thought and movement would be?
Search me, Lord, and know my heart; try me, and know my
anxieties; see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the
way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23)
For you created my
inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb .… Your eyes saw my
unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before
one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:13, 16)
Be open and be real with God. Tell Him how you really feel, not what you think He wants to hear. Spend time in prayer, but also spend time listening. Praise Him with your whole self, not just with the words from your lips. It isn't the worship He wants, it's the worshiper.
After a long, hard day, you come home tired and hungry. You head for the leftovers, only to find they’ve already been devoured. You decide to have the easy, low carb, healthy snack you bought for yourself for dinner, but someone ate it and left their own unhealthy snack food untouched.
I don’t do hungry or tired very well; it makes me grouchy. So how do I manage a hill that seems like a mountain?
I could yell at somebody. But that only relieves tension for the moment…then I’d have to apologize. I hate eating my words. I much prefer food.
I could binge my way through the irritation, but the pseudo-guilt that follows hinders my walk with God, as does the binge, which often lasts for days.
I can go with a bad food choice…just because it is a bad choice doesn’t mean I have to gorge.
I can fast. Nah…the attitude is a little "iffy" for fasting.
I could prepare a nice meal even though I don't feel like it.
Decisions! Being grumpy makes it hard to weigh the consequences of our choices because our minds are cluttered with the pollution of the day. That’s why we write on our hearts with our Sword (memorize scripture):
Lord, I give thanks to You for Your goodness and wonderful works…
for You satisfy the longing soul, and fill the hungry soul with goodness.